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Name: Pavit
Location: New York, United States
Birthday: 7/3/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: My interest include: writing poetry, reading, talking (by that I mean my stories, yeah I know you guys love them), terrorizing Steuben Hall I love it here!!!!!!
Expertise: I am a psychology major.
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Member Since:
12/8/2003
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| So I joined social action theatre, it was pretty awesome. I really feel like I have been doing things that are more meaningful this year. Like somehow I found myself, but I always felt found, strange, huh? Yeah it is. I am sitting here alone instead watching family guy with friends but it seems like it needs to be a reflective night. I told one of close friends a lot of my secrets tonight, a lot of stuff I knew would make us closer, a lot of stuff I rarely share. And it was quite apparent why I don't share it. It sucks, I cried. It okay though, I just strange now. Like I usually do after crying, kinda hollow and raw. Like I might just blow away. Well, all of this started because of the social action theatre actually. There was a lot emotional stuff people shared and they were so awesome. They were just out there, sharing their lives with me, telling me a stranger of their woes and knowing I wouldn't judge. This is what draws me to psychology, I want people to feel like I am a safe place for them to say whatever they feel. I want to be the space they escape to. I want to help heal all the broken souls out there. It helps me heal my own wounds that seem to run too deep. Nothing works but caring for them healing them, its all I know to sanity. I want to take all of the pain away from the nice people I meet. I would so much rather have that pain, than any of them having it. I wish I could click a button and they would be free of all the horrible pains in life, I really do. I love this about my life the healing and when I can't heal them, it hurts physically. This is the root of a lot of my unhappiness, those I can't touch and save with my love. Those who back away, I am standing here with open arms, and so much room in my heart it hurts. I want to love all of the people in this world and cure them all. I know this is impossible, but can I try? I love you world. | | |
| Life has gotten good. I find the direction I seek put unfortunately it has lead me to another path that I shouldn't walk down. But since its forbidden, I feel like I must. And it is so inviting, I think I will...only to get hurt again.
Damnit! This was supposed to sound cheery. I really am happy. Its just when I am happy I forget about xanga, and when I really feel something raw its usually protected. Let me know if you want to be on the list. I feel like I really know myself lately, I love Geneseo, love the people here, some a lot more than others (don't ask), and I just still don't feel completely at peace, or maybe I have forgotten what peace feel like. Maybe... | | |
| You sick bastards! Naked pictures, really? | | |
| Ha ha, clarity how you elude me. | | |
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